only a name, really?

One think I don’t do when I started a conversation is asking the name first. I mean, how could I do that? Well, most people sometimes ask only what they desire such as time and direction. It is only rare to find someone first asks about the name then asks about things they need to know. For example:

A: Pardon me, may I know your name?

B: Sure, name’s B. Nice to meet you. How about you?

A: Mine is A. Nice to meet you in this daily bus traffic. Would you please tell me the time for the next bus departure to London?

B: Well, there is one which will go straight to London at bla…bla…bla….

Sounds so brave yet it indeed requires some soft of bravery. People around me find it to be rude to ask someone’s name in instant without proper introduction. Most conversation I have found so far are more like this one:

A: Pardon me, would you mind to direct me from here to nearest convenient store? I’m new in town.

B: Not at all, please. You can go left at the first crossroad you will find ahead from here, then walk two blocks straight, bla…bla…bla….

A: Thank you.

B: You’re welcome.

This one is considered to be the proper asking for something in the middle of the crowd. If you ask someone for his/her name, he/she may think you are rude or simply they will say, “Who the hell are you asking my name like that?”. Today television’s shows sometimes show nothing but rude speaking.

I can’t really tell them wrong since in my place now, the more people know about you, more dangerous your situation will be. For example, when your ID card is exposed, many felons eventually make something under your ID and creating some frauds from it, or by knowing your place, they can rob you when you are not in home. There are many things for people to be reasons for their hiding identity. Trust is what people need the most yet the hardest thing you will find around. Today is not the day you can trust your neighborhood either. There are many examples for you to watch neighbors kill another neighbors.

A name isn’t only just a name. Name isn’t something people or even you can give or tell other people that easy. Knowing your name means one or two steps ahead to know more about you. Although this thing is crazy but there is some other places people share their name with people they recently have met. Coffee store, book store, game store. and even streets they share their name and phone number so they can catch up each other sooner or later, making new friends they say.

Giving a name or a damn, what will you do? Giving a simple nickname with smile or rudeness for someone whom might actually be nice?

A name, not a simple matter, eh?


go back or go back again?

Every year you’ve passed always has a meaning at least or meanings if you are that well mannered. Some people when they are about to have a birthday, they start to count what they want to dispose and what they want to keep. Keeping sometimes means that you want to see those things again, just once or more but it doesn’t matter.

Seeing thing in so many perspectives sometimes brings the goodness but if you are not capable to handle it, they will start to confuse you. Confusing by all means that you may be unable to think clearly. For instance, you see your old photo back and then you realize that you were much more handsome or slim or clever or some other positive points back in the day. You then become obsessive to get your old self back in every way possible, which means including the bad ones.

Losing mind means you only need to go ahead one more step to lose your character as you have today and you go back to the old you as you were before today. If you are bad person today and back then you were good one, that will not be a problem but if you are the good person and you lose your character, your mind, what then?

Going back may affects most of your emotions. Reunion somehow turns you into the old you, the one who are still carefree and energetic like a teenager. Being in your parents graves, if you can’t hold on together with the time, your tears will burst out and you of course will see before you the shadow your parents. Essentially, going back gives your emotion a drill.

Without going back, maybe you will never notice the changes you have made, the pacts you have been dealt and promised,¬† or even bonds you have been integrated with. People seem to go back, reveal themselves to their past-self, to mourn the dead dreams and orphan memories. To relive the good old days by coming their old places. People’s mind saves a lot of memories complete with every emotion necessary. There is nothing to ashamed of if you drop your tears when you see your birthplace, your parent’s graves, and sometimes when you realize how far you have gone or how much you have achieved.

Tell me, when you compared the mirror reflection of you with a picture of you right after you were born, what will be your feelings?

choose wisely even all choices are good

You can’t be serious, how should people choose wisely if all of choices are good to go?

Well, there are obvious reasons that even good choices are ones you really don’t want to choose.

What? If you are going to tell me then I am out. I guess listening to a jerk like won’t do any help at all.

Please refer to your recent activities and the choices you’ve made. You really want to help your friend so instead letting that person be what that person wanted to be, you stepped and I don’t know whether your friend is a man or woman.


You see for yourself that your cover has been blown. You had your options and you chose to arise when you knew being silent was more helpful. Now tell me that all you wanted to do was just helping.

So, instead of helping, I should better not talk at all?

Reasoning is your weakness, Kid. Your impatient and rush have brought you nothing but real messes all around you. Now why don’t you sit down and think about what you have done lately, what choices were there, and what you chose back then.

Well, there was a situation where I stood against my old acquaintance.¬† I’m going to tell you whether it is a man or woman but you can tell it’s a well-known person with high competence in anything I am not. The choices were to be there and to talk quietly, to listen what had been happening, and to get out lightly. Second chain was to not talk and let it do the talking, to reason with all available information, to conclude what really had happened back then, and to get all of those emotions killed. Third chain was to call and prepare the talking, to engage the meeting, and to make a clearance about what had happened and what should be happening next time before time was up.

Were all options good?

Yep. All options would give the same result and clearance.

And what was your call?

For all I care now, I know what was happening that time of year. I know what should be hindered and erased. I know things for sure that I don’t have any acquaintance¬† for real.

if only one shot left

If you have one shot left, what kind of bullet will you want to have?

If you have one shot left, what kind of rifle will you want to shoot it with?

If you have one shot left, where will you shoot it from?

If you have one shot left, who will you shoot?

If you have one shot left, which part of body will you take aim at?

Problem is that not everyone has every gun, every bullet, and is expert in taking aim.

That is why choosing your partner is an important thing to do.

Place you go under, person you go with, you can’t be too picky about them. Time you have won’t be last longer than your breath.

When timing must be perfect, your rifle must be steady, your breath must be deep, your aim must be accurate, your calculation must be one hundred percent correct, who will be your partner? What will be your rifle? What will be your bullet?

Is That Really Fine?

People tend to have plans for their own and to pursue them perfectly. For those who can think, they may end up having tough conversation between themselves, their parent, their dearest friends, and sometimes their teachers.

Mankind is about what to do, what really to do, and what not to do. Making them distinguishable sometimes is hurting. Simple example is about choosing your college major. You think engineering is not cool and you prefer medical school to this. Well, since you have only lived for, say, 20 years, what experiences do you have so far? Your parents may agree or disagree, your friends, especially who come from medical school and hate it will be likely to disagree. In the end you will hear bunch of reason should you consider your decision.

You want something really bad, for example matter A. For life you chase this and world itself brings forth any other options like matter B, C, etc.. Your mind at first think that other options are just for being ignored but what if the other person in your life think that they should be considered seriously? You still are chasing the matter A and then you realize that matter A gives you nothing but weariness and unhappiness. On the other side, other matters are slowly showing their good side.

People who want to take, who are currently taking those other options, are then having fun. Their mind is not burdened by some stupid unthinkable and irresolvable reasons yet you are still trying to push your idea forward in time you start to realize that pushing will only make another time goes to wasteland.

Then after all those conversation between you and your dearest, you may coma to this question:

Is that really fine to do?

You start to ask yourself about your plan(s), about your future, about what you really have to do, what you can do later, and what things if you don’t do then it doesn’t matter at all. You start to count the good and the bad of all choices. You start to imagine what you can do, you can achieve if you still are taking your first plan, matter A, and what you will get if you try the other options.

In the end your mind starts to build some sort of pathways.

If this is chosen then what? If this is not chosen then what? What should I do? Where do I go? Why do I prefer this? Why should I consider that? and on and on and on…

These questions imply that you are still sane, still able to think rationally, and willing to count, to prepare, and to not take too much risk if it is not worth it. But one thing for sure you can’t ignore is that time will only pass once and you can’t take back what you have thrown away. You can’t predict everything accurately and count all risks precisely. Will you try to get the other options world offers you or will you stick to your primary plan? Will you take the risk for having your steed on matter A which is not sure about giving you something, really, or will you be ready to step aside from what you have planned for years just to take new -unknown for you yet known for others- plans?

Risks are available not upon your request but they are available upon your choice of their triggers.

What are you willing to do?

Is what you do fine to do?

Either Power, Alliance, or Being Alone

Seeing how those three end, what would you choose for life?

Power may mean knowledge or physical strength, your brain, your muscle, or both.

Alliance can be your very friends or sometimes you end up teaming with your arch-enemy.

Being alone assures you moving fast, keeping your trouble with people minimum, and no extra responsibilities added.

Some say that those with power are proud and respected but sometimes in fear. Alliance makes you weak since you have your allies with you, you can do almost anything. Being alone makes you stronger but you can’t defeat people with alliance except you have yourself very lucky charm.

All those three can’t be maxed out in one turn. Sometimes you have to lower one and increase another. What is your choice? What is your call? What is your motivation? What is …?

Sometimes questions come massively and you don’t have enough time to answer all of them properly and sometimes you ask another person to answer that for you. Next question is whether appointed person can be trusted or not.

Between those three, what is your majority?

Weekly Photo Challenge: Illumination

Thinking about light makes me remember the time when I was doing my morning walking with a friend.



These were taken at small forest and I still think that sunlight through the trees is the best as it reminds me how beautiful our world will be if all kind of forest are conserved.